I held off on posting this one until after Mother’s Day here in the US. This one was a hard one to talk about. It still brings up a lot of emotions.
‘A Lily for Benjamin’ looks great as a fine art giclée print on velvet rag. The colors are very vibrant.
The vibrant colors are in contrast to what I was feeling when I made this. I specifically took the photo too dark. I was in a dark mood that day as I had put off dealing with the miscarriage of the only child I had knowingly conceived. I didn’t even know I was pregnant until I lost the baby. It was a very difficult time in my life. I didn’t want to deal with the feelings of my body betraying me and not letting me know I was 2 1/2 months with child. So I took the photograph very dark. That happened to be the last time that this flower would bloom. The following harsh winter killed it.
The photo sat on my computer for a long time. Then suddenly I thought of my son, Benjamin, that I had miscarried. The tears started to roll down my cheeks as I worked on bringing this flower back to life. I made it more vivid than the original flower had been. I thought of all the life and memories I missed out on because of the miscarriage. I poured all the life I had in me into making this flower live again.
I am good now. No worries. God has smiled on me. I may not have my son but I do have an awesome step-daughter. Her laughter is my joy. So this is a photograph of my heart. I hope you cherish it as much as I do. This is ‘A Lily for Benjamin’ with much love from his mother.
Until next time,
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